Post by Nacht der Tiger on Dec 20, 2004 22:30:10 GMT -5
I lost someone this year
It was as I feared
It wasn't due to death or love
It was due to lack of trust
But I guess she didn't understand
What I meant by that
No longer are there days
Where I will talk to her
I can not run to her when I need help
Or when I need to cry
I do not trust the words I speak
Or what she will say
These days it is awkward to say it all
To bare my heart and soul
I know I could trust her with my life
But there are some places I draw the line
I've heard from one that they talk about me
How do I trust what they say?
They criticize me in my choice of guys
What else can I say?
I'm trying to live my life my way
But it seems they want the only say
I lost a dear friend this year
Don't expect me to shed the tears
For enough have been shed
Enough have been let out for the world to see
I simply do not have the strength in me to cry
Although this has been a hard year for us
I'm shocked she took it all the wrong way
She yells at me and cusses at me
Says I'm jealous of something she had
And something I now have
Truth is that something liked me since day one
And I did too
There are many things I wish I could undo
But I know I cannot
This year I lost someone dear to me
Why can't she see
My insecurities have gotten the best of me
And that she has given up
I haven't given up yet
But I'll do as she says
For I mean no disrespect
Only honesty
I told her the honest truth
Along with 'him' as well
They can hate me together I guess
For I can not stop it
But I lost someone dear to me
And it was only over my honesty
*For a contest on ap.... about an old friend.... I know she won't read this... but at least it is said. I'm going to respect her 'opinion' and her feelings and leave her alone.
Jessica @}-- *
It was as I feared
It wasn't due to death or love
It was due to lack of trust
But I guess she didn't understand
What I meant by that
No longer are there days
Where I will talk to her
I can not run to her when I need help
Or when I need to cry
I do not trust the words I speak
Or what she will say
These days it is awkward to say it all
To bare my heart and soul
I know I could trust her with my life
But there are some places I draw the line
I've heard from one that they talk about me
How do I trust what they say?
They criticize me in my choice of guys
What else can I say?
I'm trying to live my life my way
But it seems they want the only say
I lost a dear friend this year
Don't expect me to shed the tears
For enough have been shed
Enough have been let out for the world to see
I simply do not have the strength in me to cry
Although this has been a hard year for us
I'm shocked she took it all the wrong way
She yells at me and cusses at me
Says I'm jealous of something she had
And something I now have
Truth is that something liked me since day one
And I did too
There are many things I wish I could undo
But I know I cannot
This year I lost someone dear to me
Why can't she see
My insecurities have gotten the best of me
And that she has given up
I haven't given up yet
But I'll do as she says
For I mean no disrespect
Only honesty
I told her the honest truth
Along with 'him' as well
They can hate me together I guess
For I can not stop it
But I lost someone dear to me
And it was only over my honesty
*For a contest on ap.... about an old friend.... I know she won't read this... but at least it is said. I'm going to respect her 'opinion' and her feelings and leave her alone.
Jessica @}-- *