Fuck me with a blow torch

[razorrape]

Shit
Things are falling out of place
My face
It seems to be erased

Eradicated of all signs of emotion

Should I take those little pills
That helped me feel this way

Take them down with water?
Coke?
Alcohol?

I need to feel alive again

Tired of the living
Envying the dying

I stand in the cold grey matter in between the realms

I fall
I cry
I get over it all

Then remember it again

Why is it all like this?

A continuous draining of energy

Gonna give it up
Gonna breakdown

But still I try
So far so good

I hope that things go the way I want them to

Otherwise I don't know what will become of me

[strangeclouds]

wow that was really good