Good-Bye....

[Heavy Hearted]

Today I can finally,truly, rejoice.
Cause I've done it, finally,for sure.
I've finally made my choice.
I've found my everlasting cure.

My place is picked, same for my day.
I'm to finally going to be forever free.
It to me feels like it was meant to be, that its okay.
I'm truly going to be finally happy to be me...

So I'm writing this, as a good-bye,
for I'm to be going home, to my heaven.
I've made my choice,the choice to die.
I've been fighting this choice since I was ten plus seven.

But I can not fight any more
I want peace, I dont want any more tears.
I want to truly heal my core,
To rid myself of my fears.

So I've made my choice, even wrote it down.
It isn't today, or even to be next week.
But its soon, it is truly known,to me,
when my freedom will be mine to seek.

Accept my choice, my right.
Don't scream, and don't cry.
Cause I finally have peace in my sight.
Just smile at knowing I'll be free, don't ask why.

Because why is never answered,that I know
I've fought for years and years.
I never let the true me ever show.
The true me is where I cried my tears, held my fears.

You think this is what I wanted?
To die because of my pain, and by my hand.
Its not my fault I'm to be dead.
Its not something I would ever command.

It came from deep within my heart.
I knew it was for me, what I longed for.
I know it will tear everyone apart.
But I have to walk out that door.

To stay will be to die anyway.
But in walking away, to die.
I'm the one, not you, to pay.
Just accept it, don't ask why.

So good-bye, and love me for me.
Cause I'm to be finally free.
Just accept what is to be.
Just be happy for me.....

>>ANGIE<<

[strangeclouds]

aw

[onyxfiretear]

this is a good poem heavy and I can feel your distress however think of it like this...when you die, your troubles are over, no more pain no more fighting, but the ones you leave behind? well their troubles, pain and hell are only beginning. well done

[strangeclouds]

wow onyx, that was perfectly worded.

[Heavy Hearted]

HI,
It is my loved ones that have kept me here this long...and they are why I'm staying...
I finally talked to my mom, seriously, about what I feel. We cried together, we laughed, we mourned....mainly she finally understood what I'm going through....and I finally let it free....I finally let her truly understand me....I've always pushed her away....but I finally let her in.....and know what, I think I'm gonna be okay....well not okay, but I will survive....
I finally let it free....
(as I wrote in a poem, in the rape/abuse section of this board)
I will not let my uncles rape me of being me....plain and simple. I won't let them win...
So I'll be around for a long time, not always happy, but alive....
>>ANGIE<<
P.S> Thanx for the compliment on the poem....

[cumslut]

It was a really good poem. you had me scared for a sec. I am glad that you talked to your mother.