I am the dirty bath water

[razorrape]

Past thoughts peer at me
Through blinds
Through cracks
Through my eyes and skin

Sit in the bath
See the red dance through the currents
Looking like smoke
As it seeps from wounds

Words escape me
I can't form a coherent thought

The water is turning pink

Screaming under the water
Bubbles shattering at the surface

Can you hear me?

Hold in the little breath I have left
Suffocate and choke
On water and surpressed screams

My mind has gone blank...

Visions of childhood and crosses return to me
Adolescence--a blur of fights
My short adulthood....

A vision of bloodied arms
Legs
Wrists

I open my eyes for the last time
I'm staring down at myself

The last air pocket escapes my lips
It bursts
Specks of bloody bath water hit the white tiles

You open the door
I'm gone
You scream and cry
It's not your fault, it's mine

Pull the plug
Let the bloody water down the drain
I've left a ring for you
It's red and lines the tub

I am the dirty bath water
Hear the final drops of me course down the pipes
That is my goodbye to you

Don't pick me up and hold me
I don't want to stain your clothes
Like I've stained your heart
Your life

Call the coroner
Have my funeral
I'll be there with you
But you won't see me

That's the best thing


Bloody tears fall down
But turn clear before they tap your skull
You think it rain
But its just the ignorant tears of a person you use to know

Grief is wasted on me....



Don't cry

[Heavy Hearted]

I don't know what to say besides I like it.....
(to tired to think, sorry)

>>Heavy Hearted<<

[KickMe]

wow, i really really like this. you did an excellant job here, and i could really see what was happening in my mind. *points at forehead where my mind's eye is located* lol. anywayz, yeah, good job, you have an incredible talent. it was honest and full of emotion.