My shadow

[Shadow]

This is a poem about my shadow.

Holding on
A grip so tight
A thread of life
Of breath remains
And darkened goes my sight

Words are wailing
Whispering, hissing
Depression brews
In saddened eyes
Can't I just stop listening?!

Shrug off the hands
Glare back at stares
The caring ones
I push away
Pretend they're never there

I bring them down
Destroy them as well as me
Unintentionally, of course
Yet their scars remain
And they don't seem to see

Yet he won't leave
Won't abandon nor forsake
I shove him, beat him
Why still he stands?
His hand I cannot take

I simply can't
I will not, never
I know I'll hurt him
Betray him, destroy him
Force him into my Hell forever

Yet it's only his words
That linger in my mind
So soothing, calming
Enrapturing, numbing
I'm lost in his understanding bind

Out of reach, yes
But never out of heart
Forever he's with me
If only in spirit
And with him I can't fall apart

Confused and worried
I draw him near
Then push him back
Knowing my own destruction
And brimming with worry and fear

Yet he pushes so forward
I fall, he kneels down
Won't leave me crying
Won't leave me alone
In my own thick blood to drown

I never want to lose him
For him I will survive
He's my darkness to hide in
Comfort for my soul
Forever keeping me alive

So willingly I stand
His soft words ever deep
I fall into his embrace
Breath in his soul
And in Shadow, my Shadow, find sleep

[strangeclouds]

good job