Post by WilliamG on Nov 3, 2004 20:34:16 GMT -5
Fearless Coward
I used to be afraid of nothing
Until the day that I met you.
I used to be so resolute,
Until I gained something to lose.
My fearlessness was absolute.
I wouldn't run, I wouldn't hide,
I made sure all my fears were denied.
But now i see I wasn't brave,
So easy not to fear what isn't even there.
No-one mournes the loss of an empty vessel, not even the captain,
But now you've filled me with a treasure,
And a reason to be scared.
The loss of just one piece of this,
Would surely leave my heart impaired.
So far the waters have been calm,
No reason to despair.
But waters don't remain the same,
Despite the oceans sweet, sweet air.
So all i have to ask of you,
Is please hold on with all your might.
Don't let my treasure fall off board,
Don't give it up, don't lose the fight.
I have the utmost faith in you,
To care for this cargo in my heart.
Take it from the place it started,
To its destination point.
//I never used to be afraid of anything Asha, because I've never had anything to lose, but now that you have come into my life, even small things strike fear into me, the thought of losing you is the most frightening thing i have ever experienced, but at the same time i'm not afraid at all because i have absolute trust in you that you do love me, my faith in our love is absolute, but the stronger my love becomes, the more i fear the idea of losing you, even though i know it isnt possible on an emotional and spiritual level, after thinking about this, i realize that i am a fearless coward, i have nothing to fear, and yet im more afraid at this point in my life than i have ever been of death, so worried that my happiness will be cut short by some tragic event that i have no reason to believe will happen, im stuck in a whirlpool of emotions that serves only to strengthen my love for you every second i think about it, to be more Secure, content, and comfortable with your life than you have ever been and at the same time be more worried, and frightened than you have ever been in your life is a very new experience for me, but thankfully, one that makes me feel at least that i exist as opposed to my prior beliefs, two opposite sides of a spectrum of emotion both reside inside of me at the same time, i feel as though i have become some what of a humanoid Yin-Yang having achieved such a balance, my fear of losing you fueling my heart to prove that i love you, and the proof that i love you fueling my mind to inspire fear(anyone who loves anything, also fears something - the loss of that thing) I used to be proud of my fearlessness but now realize that the only ones without fear are the most miserable creatures on the planet and in all honesty am now thankful for my newly found outlook on life. -=I've said it before, and I'll say it again, Thank you Asha, for being my light, you define my existence.=-
I used to be afraid of nothing
Until the day that I met you.
I used to be so resolute,
Until I gained something to lose.
My fearlessness was absolute.
I wouldn't run, I wouldn't hide,
I made sure all my fears were denied.
But now i see I wasn't brave,
So easy not to fear what isn't even there.
No-one mournes the loss of an empty vessel, not even the captain,
But now you've filled me with a treasure,
And a reason to be scared.
The loss of just one piece of this,
Would surely leave my heart impaired.
So far the waters have been calm,
No reason to despair.
But waters don't remain the same,
Despite the oceans sweet, sweet air.
So all i have to ask of you,
Is please hold on with all your might.
Don't let my treasure fall off board,
Don't give it up, don't lose the fight.
I have the utmost faith in you,
To care for this cargo in my heart.
Take it from the place it started,
To its destination point.
//I never used to be afraid of anything Asha, because I've never had anything to lose, but now that you have come into my life, even small things strike fear into me, the thought of losing you is the most frightening thing i have ever experienced, but at the same time i'm not afraid at all because i have absolute trust in you that you do love me, my faith in our love is absolute, but the stronger my love becomes, the more i fear the idea of losing you, even though i know it isnt possible on an emotional and spiritual level, after thinking about this, i realize that i am a fearless coward, i have nothing to fear, and yet im more afraid at this point in my life than i have ever been of death, so worried that my happiness will be cut short by some tragic event that i have no reason to believe will happen, im stuck in a whirlpool of emotions that serves only to strengthen my love for you every second i think about it, to be more Secure, content, and comfortable with your life than you have ever been and at the same time be more worried, and frightened than you have ever been in your life is a very new experience for me, but thankfully, one that makes me feel at least that i exist as opposed to my prior beliefs, two opposite sides of a spectrum of emotion both reside inside of me at the same time, i feel as though i have become some what of a humanoid Yin-Yang having achieved such a balance, my fear of losing you fueling my heart to prove that i love you, and the proof that i love you fueling my mind to inspire fear(anyone who loves anything, also fears something - the loss of that thing) I used to be proud of my fearlessness but now realize that the only ones without fear are the most miserable creatures on the planet and in all honesty am now thankful for my newly found outlook on life. -=I've said it before, and I'll say it again, Thank you Asha, for being my light, you define my existence.=-
Baby how could you do that to me? I trusted you.....I know deep down you're the only man i'll ever love..but you hurt me... I just want to forget what you've done. I honestly love you. But you make me confused a lot. Most of the time. But baby that poem was so beautiful and i thank you so much for sharing that with my heart. I love you always. Take care baby. 
