Post by oOFoxxyDeannaOo on Oct 26, 2004 3:15:39 GMT -5
Here's my last goodbye to you.
I loved you so much I would die or you,
but i guess some times thats just not enough.
I loved it when you watched me sleep, the way you would wake me from my nightmares
and pray to the angels to deliver me from evil.
I loved the way you would pretend to know who i really was, and make beleive
i really was the girl of your dreams.
i guess you can only pretend for so long.
Darkness prevailed once again in my life.
Time laughing in my face showing me all that i can never have from you.
i can see you searching for something i can never give you.
maybe you'll find some one that will understand you more than i do.
Before i knew happiness, i knew hate.
My family told me I was nothing so many times.. it became who i was.
NOTHING.
So here i am with this cold steel pushed against my throbbing neck.
i can almost taste the blood in my mouth. (giving me a strange feeling of ecstasy )
All i want to leave you with is the knowledge that you were the love of my life,
i just wasnt the love of yours.
and i had to live with this feeling everyday.(but not anymore)
I cant take knowing you would have a better life with out me here. (the person i would die for, would be happier in this life without me. aint that a kick in the face)
For such a long time i've been pushed over the edge, always being told i'm not good enough.
i'm not pretty enough, fast enough, smart enough, strong enough, or i dont try enough. (what great words of encouragement)
My hands have been on the edge of this cliff, and now your here to step on them.
So goodbye to you. My deliverer of pain and evil.
You've saved my life again.
By ending it.
I love you always. I'll miss you forever.
I loved you so much I would die or you,
but i guess some times thats just not enough.
I loved it when you watched me sleep, the way you would wake me from my nightmares
and pray to the angels to deliver me from evil.
I loved the way you would pretend to know who i really was, and make beleive
i really was the girl of your dreams.
i guess you can only pretend for so long.
Darkness prevailed once again in my life.
Time laughing in my face showing me all that i can never have from you.
i can see you searching for something i can never give you.
maybe you'll find some one that will understand you more than i do.
Before i knew happiness, i knew hate.
My family told me I was nothing so many times.. it became who i was.
NOTHING.
So here i am with this cold steel pushed against my throbbing neck.
i can almost taste the blood in my mouth. (giving me a strange feeling of ecstasy )
All i want to leave you with is the knowledge that you were the love of my life,
i just wasnt the love of yours.
and i had to live with this feeling everyday.(but not anymore)
I cant take knowing you would have a better life with out me here. (the person i would die for, would be happier in this life without me. aint that a kick in the face)
For such a long time i've been pushed over the edge, always being told i'm not good enough.
i'm not pretty enough, fast enough, smart enough, strong enough, or i dont try enough. (what great words of encouragement)
My hands have been on the edge of this cliff, and now your here to step on them.
So goodbye to you. My deliverer of pain and evil.
You've saved my life again.
By ending it.
I love you always. I'll miss you forever.
