I Beg You

[LostInnocence]

I love you, don't you?
I begged you to love me.

I begged you to care
Because I care about you.

I begged you to stop.
Stop being so mean.

I know you're powerful than me.
I beg you to stop proving that to me.

I know what it looked like,
I hugged another man.

No, I wasn't cheating.
I beg you to believe me.

I'll never do it again.
I swear on my life.

Don't go into a jealous rage.
I beg you to let it go.

But you didn't listen to my pleas.
And, instead, gave me a black eye.

Then you begged me not to leave.
To stay and that you'd change.

So many times I believed your claims.
I stayed, loving you, begging you to do the same.

Once again I knew I messed up.
Walking on eggshells, I begged someone to save me.

The gorgeous man I loved,
Screamed until I cowered far into the corner.

I looked in your eyes, scared.
Begging you to let it go.

But you grabbed me by the arm.
And threw me against the wall.

You stood over me and kicked me.
I cried, begging you to stop.

I left you after that
And I beg you to leave me alone.

Let me move on,
I beg you to give me that one joy.

Soon enough I found another,
To love and to cherish.

I loved him deeply, more deeply than you.
But I found myself begging for mercy again

Author's Note: I wrote this after i broke up with my bf of 5 months only to date another abusive bf who held a gun to my head when I tried to leave...it worked I stayed for another 3 months with him. They turned out to be cousins...guess abuse runs in the family.

[Heavy Hearted]

I have no clue what you've gone thru, or what that kind of situation is like....but my heart goes out to you....
The poem was great,....keep up the good work....

>>Heavy Hearted<<

[Aaron Graf]

I don't believe in the death penalty so I guess endless torture would do perfectly for men like this, kind of like what they put you through.

[LostInnocence]

Remember Aaron, I have beat some of them up myself...