Don't you worry I'll be okay

[Heavy Hearted]

This is another of my poems, I wrote it when I was like 16....so it is not how I feel today. Also as you can tell I've lived one more day...I live one day at a time now, not like i used to do, living year to year. I've learnt how to "forget" my pain on most days, I've learnt how to "survive". Hope you like it.....

Don't worry I'll be okay


God help me, I can no longer fight
I can no longer win against the pain
I've fought with all my might,
but I ain't the one tonight to gain.

Don't pretend you know what I feel,
because you've never lived in my mind.
Don't tell me to just hang on, that I'll heal.
That my pain is the same as yours, not a very different kind.

Don't tell me to hang on, to fight one more day
because I'm tired, its time for me to go.
Don't worry, because once I reach heaven, I'll be okay
Just remember the true me, the me I didn't ever show.

Don't tell me I'm taking the easy way out,
Letting him win once again, that he has broken me.
Cause I know this is the choice for me, without a doubt.
Its okay, I'll finally be able to feel, and I'll finally get to see.

To see the beauty of this world, the right.
For here on earth my vision is so very blurry.
I can't see the beauty, even with all my might.
I'll be okay, don't you worry.

I've found my peace, my right.
For I finally realised what I need to be.
I now have my future within my sight,
I'm to be an angel, don't you see.

So please don't tell me to fight one more day
cause I want to be an angel, and freely fly.
Don't you worry cause I'll be okay,
cause in heaven there'll be no more tears to cry.

He may have took my innocence, but not my free will
Who'd have thought, in that little time,
he could take my heart and soul to kill.
Who'd have thought, that he'd commit such a crime.

But funny thing is its okay,
I've found my peace at last.
I've finally reached the day,
that I'm okay with my past.

It made me strong while it could,
it kept me here for my family to love.
I know what he took, no man should,
but I'm okay, I'm going to heaven up above.

So my dearest uncle, I forgive you.
You killed my soul, yet kept me here.
Just remember tho that I'll hate you forever true,
for in my eyes, my hatred is clear.

You took my innocence, my reason to live.
You took everything, whatever you sought
You took everything to this world that I had to give....
Now my life god has purchased and bought...

Sadly no one tried to save me, figure it was untrue, a lie,
but thats okay, for they didn't know my story.
They don't realise how every day I did die,
and all for a man's morning glory...

The world didn't care, not about tiny little me.
They turned their backs, and walked away.
They sure didn't care that I was only three,
but don't you worry I'll be okay.

Cause god knows my pain, and my heart.
He'll hold me close in his arms, and cry.
For he create the man that broke me apart,
the man who helped me choose to die.

God won't turn his back, not on tiny me.
For I'm an innocent, if only the world had seen.
But now god is my savour,my freedom, its easy to see,
Its just to bad I won't be able to see what I might have been.

All because human kind turned away
and left me in my fear, to let my tears cry.
But don't you worry I'll be okay,
because I've truly made my choice to die.

So fairwell my cruel world, come and see me someday.
For now its time for me to with the angels and fly.
But don't you worry, I'll truly be okay,
because in heaven there will be no tears left to cry..

>>Heavy Hearted<<

[LostInnocence]

this poem was fantastically better with the flow. it made me cry once again cause it definately hit home. my favorite lines were most definately:

Sadly no one tried to save me, figure it was untrue, a lie,
but thats okay, for they didn't know my story.
They don't realise how every day I did die,
and all for a man's morning glory...

The world didn't care, not about tiny little me.
They turned their backs, and walked away.
They sure didn't care that I was only three,
but don't you worry I'll be okay.

Cause god knows my pain, and my heart.
He'll hold me close in his arms, and cry.
For he create the man that broke me apart,
the man who helped me choose to die.

I've never heard anyone explain it like that...and its simply beautiful. great job...keep ur head up

[Heavy Hearted]

Thank you for you reply, for your praise....funny how one word from a stranger can make your day worth while........Like i said I've gotten better...I still have a ways to go til I'm great...but writing makes the pain ease a bit....
As to holding my head up, well I try.....somedays I swear that is it, i can't fight one more minute, but I then reread my poetry, it helps me remember I beat it before, I can do it again....
I'm glad you liked the poem.....altho sadly that you can understand it.....no child should ever go through that....
>>Heavy Hearted<<

[LostInnocence]

you're stronger than you give yourself credit for.

[Heavy Hearted]

Thanx for your vote of confidence in me....
I just hope you are right, cause somedays I don't feel strong at all.....
>>Heavy Hearted<<